Notes that bring me back to myself

Sometimes you just have to quit one, and start another.





於是我離開了上個工作，前往自己也看不清楚的未來圖像。





有好一陣子我睡不好，該是熟睡的時候腦海裡卻有成堆的影像，



淺眠之中隔棟公寓的狗還在吠，嘶聲竭力。原就在眼周圍的眼圈



更黑了一點，每天自覺皺著眉頭沒笑容，早晨座車經過語言中心



的時候，才偶爾因為陽光灑在枯枝上的光點而稍微鬆開心。





累的時候聽馬勒，年輕的時候聽搖滾樂，哀傷的時候聽大提琴，



孤獨的時候聽陳昇，自殘的時候聽Garbage，老的時候，什麼也



不聽。





我以為我再也寫不出東西來了，因為有一點心死的感覺。





習慣把一首歌聽上五十遍，想像聲音薄掉了，就像我和所有人的



關係一樣。





於是我又拿出Garbage，自殘一下。





然後我又想到，該換首歌了，然後我聽起Good Is Good。





**Good Is Good

by Sheryl Crow



Good is good and bad is bad

You don't know which one you had

She put your books out on the sidewalk

Now they're blowing ‘round

They won't help you when you're down



Love's on your list of things to do

To bring your good luck back to you

And if you think that everything's unfair

Would you care if you're the last one standing there



And everytime you hear the rolling thunder

You turn around before the lightening strikes

And does it ever make you stop and wonder

If all your good times pass you by

I don't hold no mystery

But I can show you how to turn the key

Cause all I know is where I started

So downhearted

And that's not where you want to be



And everytime you hear the rolling thunder

You turn around before the lightening strikes

And you could find a rock to crawl right under

If all your good times pass you by



音樂不曾停過，我只能繼續跳舞。



跳接的思緒讓他跳接。







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